Contents

Articles

Personal Voices

Eternal Identity Misunderstood: A TransgenderWoman’s Journey Through Faith, Revelation, and LDS Policy



For much of my life, I tried to be the man everyone expected me to be—faithful, successful, and called by God to lead—but inside, I struggled with gender dysphoria. My journey toward self-acceptance, detailed in my memoir Dictates of Conscience: From Mormon High Priest to My New Life as a Woman (Signature Books, 2024), led me to transition while serving as a stake president and working as a church architect.



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Poetry

Reviews

Roundtable

When Prophecy Fails



A good friend walked into my office in November 2015 and slumped into the chair opposite mine, utterly distraught. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints had just updated its leadership handbook to define…



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Sermon

The Sacredness of the Transgender Experience



I have a niece who is deutan colorblind, meaning she has trouble distinguishing between red and green. Even when she and I are looking at the same things, we see them quite differently because of our bodies—specifically our eyes. I don’t see her difference as a deficiency, and in fact, I am fascinated by hearing how she experiences the world. She has a unique perspective, and while I will never experience it, I try to understand it.



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Volume Art

From Protest Poster to Meme: The Visual Language of Queer Dissent at BYU



The protests of 2019 and 2020 at Brigham Young University (BYU) stand out as a notable period of rupture within an otherwise doctrinally strict and culturally conventional institution. Often pulling up to three hundred student participants, these protests marked a watershed moment for LGBTQ+ discourse at the conservative flagship of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.



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